Why am I blogging? WHY AM I BLOGGING? I have freaking deadlines, WHY THE HELL AM I BLOGGING.

I need a bit of stress relief. Here's what's been happening in life:

I'm swamped with work, but it's okay, I'm still alive though a bit late when it comes to the timeline, I swear, it's not my fault. It's just so difficult to follow deadlines when a certain person isn't there when you need him! D:

I have realized that I LOATHE what I am doing with a PASSION. It's just depressing that I'm already in my 4th year. Most of my batchmates are seniors and they seem to be enjoying the path they chose. I, on the otherhand, am not. I'm only under constant suffering along with my friends. Recently, I've been wanting to improve so much in the arts. I want to learn new things. I want to learn how to draw cats, backgrounds, swords, guns. WHATEVER. But I can't do that right now because I'm supposed to be busy doing this shit. DDDDDDDDDDDD:<


In short, what's been happening in my life: DEEEEEEEEESSSSPAAAIIRRRRRRR.

Indeed. I haven't posted in Multiply in ages. Nor have I checked it for the sake of my own account. I only use the folio account these days but actually not too much either. Apparently, I've been swept away by the Facebook craze as well.

What ever happened to my blogging though? It's been drained by micro blogging. Or the curse I'd like to call Plurk. Yes, I'm still active there.

So, what am I doing here? I dunno, really. I just felt like making a post to show to all those still active here that I am still alive and not a rotting corpse surrounded by flies.

What else? Nothing much. 'Cept I've eaten the best leche flan on earth. LIKE YES. HAHA. It's so creamy and melts in my mouth and I didn't give a damn that I (OR MY MOM) had to pay 100php for it. It was just that good.

I have bangs now...

Class of Heroes is crappy. Should have just DL'd Dissidia instead.

Public Enemies with Food People on Saburdei. Hoozah! Johnneeeehh without facial hair~ Much love to that. AND IN A SUIT TOO. LIEK ZOMG. :DDDDDDDDDD

Let's see. I finally got a DVD of Angels and Demons. And I've been re-reading the book as well. I'm still not done, don't ask why, I never read while I'm at home.

I did this list of inconsistencies without looking at the book or at Wikipedia. All from my memory, so maybe I missed some and maybe I've also made a mistake. Meh. Why am I looking so much into this?

 

 
Not sure what else to add here. I haven’t finished re-reading the book, I’ll add more when I finish it. I’m almost done with this, anyway. 

I'm like, "OMIGOD, WHY IS MY HEAD POUNDING LIKE THIS."

It's not too bad that I want to die right at this very moment. But it's the kind of headache that's more ANNOYING than painful. The kind of headache that distracts you from what you're doing.

Good gravy. And this whole new Multiply thing, not working out for me.

I've become a Facebooker. Mostly because of the OZUM applications. I love Pet Society, need I say more?

I never knew that some tomato ketchup would make soggy fries an okay snack. BUT MYGOD, REALLY, THIS HEADACHE, IT'S PISSING ME OFF.

Ahem. Right. I suck at life because I still haven't finished re-reading A&D. What the hell have I been doing?! GOOD LAWD. But I got to the part where Carlo killed himself and Vittoria was all like, "He killed my father! He killed his own father!" HAHA, PRICELESS, EPIC LINE NOT MENTIONED IN THE MOVIE.

Anyway, the first week of school is over and I guess it was okay. Got an early weekend. :D

And I'm a WAMmer and a PRCer(?!). I guess I'll see my bosses at work in their respective comm meetings.

I do not believe in aspirins. This comment may seem random, but it is connected to my freakingly annoying headache.

I'm looking for a way to end this blog entry.

You know, if someone were to point a gun at me and tell me to make a unicorn out of this piece of paper, I will DIE. One of the many things I fail at in life is ORIGAMI. It's always been like that since I was a kid.

A traumatizing memory is from my Grade 1 art class where my teacher laughed at my deformed shrimp. Thank you, that surely improved my self esteem.

I'm thankful though that no one is indeed pointing a gun at me right now, ordering me to make a unicorn out of paper.

I was able to summarize the gist of PUTO in one freakingly dramatic song fic. How wonderful is that, eh? XDDDDDDDDD

I was listening to "A Thousand Miles" and I was so inspired. First I thought of making an animation but that would take 234456247132415169 years to finish so I opted with the easier task, writing a song fic. I wrote because I was feeling so frustrated with my decreasing writing prowess. :(

 

( Onto the drama! )

Will try to keep this short.

Some highlights from today's wedding:

- Orange gown.
- Read A&D in the car, making myself nauseous. How great self, how great.
- Wedding started late. No rehearsals no nothing. I was Maid of Honor and I freaking didn't know what to do.
- People were crying. I tried hard not to cry too. Lol.
- My feet were in hell when the ceremony was over.
- The food in the reception is TO DIE FOR. Especially the dessert bar: cupcakes, choco fountain, pudding, choco mousse, banana crepe. It was heaven for me.
- Guy singer sounded exactly like Martin Nievera. And he sang "You Are My Song" and really indeed sounded like Martin.
- In the game of catch the roses. The rule was catch the rose so that you won't be penalized later by pairing you up to a possible stranger who wasn't able to catch the garter. I caught a rose quickly but then SOMEONE decided to snap mine in half and that person took the part with the flower. WTF?! Luckily, I got another one. But srsly.
- Had to endure a 30 minute ride home with a full bladder. It wasn't a very pleasant experience.

It's 1:08am. And I've just begun re-reading Angels & Demons again [Yuh, it's prolly my 3rd or 4th time reading this.] a while ago and just now, I reached my most favorite part of the book. You'll see just how much of a Camerlengo Carlo Ventresca fangirl I am. I went online to post this for my convenience because I always seem to forget what page it is and stuff.


The camerlengo was nothing like the images of frail, beatific old men Langdon usually imagined roaming the Vatican. He wore no rosary beads or pendants. No heavy robes. He was dressed instead in a simple black cassock that seemed to amplify the solidity of his substantial frame. He looked to be in his late-thirties, indeed a child by Vatican standards. He had a surprisingly handsome face, a swirl of coarse brown hair, and almost radiant green eyes that shone as if they were somehow fueled by the mysteries of the universe. As the man drew nearer, though, Langdon saw in his eyes a profound exhaustion -- like a soul who had been through the toughest fifteen days of his life.

"I am Carlo Ventresca," he said, his English perfect. "The late pope's camerlengo." His voice was unpretentious and kind, with only the slightest hint of Italian inflection.

- Angels & Demons Chapter 39, page 144, paragraphs 6 and 7

You don't really have to read this. I'm just reminiscing.

I'd like to refer to my days or technically 4 years of playing Philippine Ragnarok Online as "Hermitry Days". Why? Because it's exactly that. I succumbed to hermitry back then. After school, I'd go directly home and turn on my BOTs.

There was a time that I knew each and every one of my characters' exact names even to the point of the spaces and the symbols I used. But now, it's just a distant memory. /emo.

I made a blog entry in my old Friendster blog about it before but that was very much outdated. It was a very long blog entry too. LOL. I think I was able to count at least 20++ characters? Including the ones I have deleted.

Hm. I guess since my RO bestie is playing at justRO, I can't help but remember the days I used to play in pRO.

I wasn't the richest person in the world of Rune Midgard, but I think I can say, I could do quite well. XD I didn't have a batallion of accounts, mostly because I can't support too many anyway. I can't even bot 24/7. I could only bot as long as I am awake and at home. I could say that 7 transcendents were quite plenty for a person like me. XD

My first transcendent and my only lvl 99 one, is my high priestess. And that paved way to my 6 others because having a bot support makes everything so much easier.

The second was a mastersmith who got stuck at lvl 81 for the panda cart.

The third was a champion that got stuck at lvl 91.

The fourth was a male high priest who I leveled until 96.

The fifth was a female assassin cross who wielded dual daggers. I think she got stuck at 92.

The sixth was a biochemist who got stuck at lvl 73 because leveling these buggers required lots of money and I'm very stingy.

The seventh was a male assassin cross who got stuck at a level in the mid 80s, I forget. He was an int type for soul breaker.

The time that I quit, I was on my way to simultaneously making my 8th, 9th and 10th. The sequence didn't matter but I knew those characters were close. I was aiming for a third high priest, a stalker and a lord knight.

Why did I quit? Well, I wasn't willing to pay 350 php to play at a place where my friends weren't playing anymore. Sure, I had a lot of friends over there, but not the ones to whom I was closest with. My 3 closest friends had "quit" that time and all that's left for me are some enemies who never left me alone. Now, why would I still pay 350php a week for that kind of playing experience?

So I quit and that's when the hermitry stopped as well. And that was also the time that I joined KEM. Isn't that loltastic? XD

I guess I just miss my characters. I really do love them so much because I worked so hard for them to reach that far and get that strong (well, not rly. Hahaha!).

Yeah, was just reminiscing.

Here's the specific blog entry, by the way. Posted for my convenience. XD

I've been doing one helluva set of fun things to make up for lost time. I mean for cripe's sake, I have only a week left. Because we all know enrollment takes the whole week, school's crappy that way.

Thus, here's a list of things I've been trying to do simultaneously, srsly.

1. Be creative. (Draw, write stories, space out, draw some more)
2. Watch stuff. (Digimon Frontier, Liar Game)
3. Read stuff. (Kuroshitsuji, Liar Game, Horou Musuko, Angels and Demons)
4. Plurk.
5. Chat in YM.
6. Play stuff. (JustRO [I have returned! Sort of, my pRO bestie decided to play there, so I shall support her <3], FFXII: Revenant Wings, Pokemon Blue Mystery Dungeon, and other NDS games to abuse my NDS emulator)


So, yes. I have a lot of windows and tabs opened to accomodate these tasks and I wish DELL-san will not explode. D:<

I am also saving up for a 320MB external hard disk but so far, I'm going bankrupt. >.>;

So, here's a complete want list:
1. 320MB external hard disk - I want to store the PSD files of my art work there. PSD files take up a lot of space after all.
2. ATENEO JACKET - It's blue, STFU.
3. Blue contact lenses - Need I say more?
4. Raichu and Charmander Pokemon figurines. - Because Raichu is OZUM and Charmander is adorkable.
5. Open Canvas - because I hear it has screen tones. Web manga plz? XD
6. Working Adobe CS3 Master Collection installer - Anyone wanna lend me one?


And oh, FFFFFF. The wedding is on Thursday next week. Like zomg. D:

I watched it the movie version of my favorite book evahr. Angels & Demons.

Beware of the rants and ravings and possible spoilers. XD

First of all, it's disappointing that they didn't use the ambigram when the title flashes for the first time.

SO MANY THINGS IN MY MIND, I DUNNO WHERE TO START.

They didn't even include the old guy from CERN, rly. I dun remember his name, which is why I'm thinking of re-reading the book and stuff.

They didn't even visit CERN. Which is why I was wondering when the old guy from CERN would enter into the movie. Guh.

Vittoria was supposed to be wearing shorts too! And why didn't they make her "research partner" into her father?! This was very important because she'll say a very epic line in the book which was once again not in the movie.

And is it really like that at the Vatican? Despite it being 7ish already, it's soooo bright out? I'm ignorant, forgive me.

WHO THE FUCK IS PATRICK?! This was gravely upsetting for me because I really loved CARLO as a character. I know his name wasn't mentioned much but 4-5 years ago? I don't really imagine myself asking my dad if "PATRICK" would die. But still, Ewan did great. He was so magnificent and hot. <3 I'm being sinful. Ever since I read A&D and also because of RO, I've had some sort of priest fetish. >.>

I think Bacon and I were the only ones LOLing about the fact that Robert epicly phailed at rescuing the cardinal who was being burned to death. Instead of helping the guy, he just phailed and led him to his death even more. PHAIL.

CARLO not going "insane" when he was leading them to where the antimatter canister was being hidden at.

And Robert not going with Carlo on the helicopter. That was vital. D:< Robert was supposed to drown in water and when he was going to return back to the Vatican, Vittoria was supposed to make out with him. (Btw, Vittoria should have also been almost raped by the Hassassin guy. And they never mentioned a word about Hassassins and hashish either.)

I'm sorry, am I reading too much into this? XD

AND MOST EPIC SCENE IN THE MOVIE THAT BACON AND I AGREED ON. When CARLO jumped down and had his parachute, he became unconscious at some point right? Well, it's his unconscious body MAIMING people. That was epic. VERY EPIC.

And in relation to Vittoria's father not EXISTING. The most epic line in the whole book was not even in the movie. And actually, the pope really was Carlo's father too. THUS, THE LINE IS:

"HE KILLED MY FATHER! HE KILLED HIS OWN FATHER!"

But really, despite all this, my ranting and everything, THE MOVIE WAS GREAT. I'm willing to watch it again and again and I'm sure it's Ewan's fault.

<3

Most of you will not get what the fuck this is. I guess that's good. I just needed a place to post this in. XD

It's simply just an excerpt from my original story. :)

 

( Tears of Joy? )

 

I dunno why I was crying when I wrote this. I guess it's just so painful when you think that it was your fault that the person most important to you died. No duh, of course it would be. Here's another excerpt...

 

( weird POVs )

... yeah. XD

Yeah. So here's this week's episode. The Nina episode which made me so sad last time is the equivalent of Ep 7 in the first season.

The opening still gives me goosebumps. :D
( Shou Tucker. )

I'd like to say that it is a review. But it will most likely just be my reactions to it, much like my play diaries.

And since I fail at life and had two weeks pass me by before I started this, I'm going to begin with FMA S2 E3.
( yuhyuhyuh )

I just effin realized that the year now is 2009 and it's April and that's the time the story in Persona 3 started! Thus, will make fanart now.

I had a strange dream last night. T'was so strange I had to write it down so that I wouldn't forget.

The setting was a mountain-ish terrain and somewhat I seem to be the leader of some big army of people who are on this terrain. Suddenly, Chinese started invading and I was all like, "TAKE OUT YOUR WEAPONS! YOUR KNIVES, YOUR MACES!"

And I started running down said terrain, slashing and stabbing at the Chinese who were wearing white. Nyahahahaha! Eventually once down the mountain I accidentally stabbed some of my own allies because they were wearing white as well. I could have sworn I was all like, "Uhm, whoops *hides weapon behind back*".

Then there was this guy who also had a weapon and we had an awesome one on one with our blades. Then while in one of those sword clashing moments, I kicked him on the nuts. Then slashed his face. W00t, I rule.

They retreated.. but after a few days they came back. And that REALLY pissed me off. So, I jumped into my blimp which was like a Kirov from RA2. And pressed a button and nuked China. (When I told my dad about this he was all like, "I sure hope I wasn't at China when you nuked it." LOL. I just said, "Uhm... WHOOPS.")

Then I began laughing like Lelouch from Code Geass . Crazy. >.>

I think it's my whole World Domination thing resurfacing. HAHA!

Omigod. WTF. It's crazy. I never knew. AHHHH! WTF?!

I have just realized I'm Maid of (effin) Honor in my cousin's wedding. ZOMG, WHAT? ... WHAT?! And for the past few weeks there I was thinking it was my other cousin. Ah, it's crazy! D:

I don't even have honor! I'm a perverted pyschopath! But maybe perv psychos do have honor but it's not too noticeable. Uh-huh. Maybe I do have honor after all. BUT YEAH STILL IT'S CRAZY. >.>

The wedding's next month, btw.

And fak, can't seem to cross-post anymore. I hate Multiply for always saying it's a wrong userpass combo. BUT IT'S RIGHT. I just logged-in to my LJ and it's right! Idiot Multiply.

Anywayz, I kinda feel that I'm gonna have to wear glasses in the near future. I dunno, I just feel it.

Would have happened sooner or later because I'm always in front of the laptop for a minimum of 6 hours a day, perhaps 18 hours maximum. That's how much time I'm here, taking in the radiation and all that shiatz.

Yeah.

I'm hungry.

I've made the greatest dessert of all time though. Beats cerealicious by a long shot! Yeah!

Sigh. Well, just when everyone else's hell weeks are over, mine (or ours in the case of the UP students reading this) is just beginning. Really, still not in the mood to do any of the programming that I'm supposed to do. I'd rather bum around, play with my dog and I dunno, stare into space. But if I keep up with that, I shall fail my subjects epicly. So, I prolly won't.

For the first time in how many months really, I went home at around 3pm~ish. Wow, it's a feat. Even my mom was surprised. Had to skip out on the EOEA Finals Night (sorry gaiz!) because I wanted to go home early for once.

I actually got my deal of karma for ditching my orgmates when I nearly choked on a piece of chicken egg kwek-kwek. I don't know what happened but I was chewing a rather big piece that I bit off of it (PERHAPS HALF OF THE EGG, BUT WTF, REALLY.). Then I somehow suddenly SWALLOWED a great deal of it. Fuck, my esophagus still hurts from that encounter. But after that, I acted as if nothing happened and bought another one. Will I ever learn from my mistakes? XD

I spent a greater time at CASAA waiting in line to get a photox of my bio readings than at ES 26 where I was programming. How great is that. The photox machine suddenly broke down while I was in line. Talk about crappy luck. Once again, karma. I know.

Right now, I'm just waiting for my mom to call me to fetch her over at her friend's house. Taking her sweet time if you asked me.

I suddenly am reminded that my aunt who is in the U.S. She asked me what I wanted because she was going to return... whenwasitagainIforget. So, I dunno really, I was saving up for my current want/need, which is a tablet. So, I told her I'd appreciate moolah. Or perhaps tons of stuffed toys. Penguins. Hamsters. Dogs. Cats. Any would do. Especially those that could be squished. Yeaaaaah. Me and the simple pleasures of life, really.

I want my coffee now.

I realize that most of my batchmates from HS will be graduating next year, while I shall be stuck studying for another (or more so much more) year(s). Envy. Envy. Envy. I wanna strangle Tuna for saying she still wants to study. I want this hell to end. Let's join the ever boring work force, gaiz. LOL. At least there'll be no grades there. There's just the risk of getting fired and all that, but really, t'is better than repeating a year. Or not, since getting fired means starving to death, eating your socks for dinner. But really, this blog entry is starting to become pretentiously witty. But in reality, it means nothing.

... was something Ron told me by accident one time. It was one helluva loltastic time.

And just now, he tried to prove it to me by predicting the future if I happened to die right now.

ron villasquez: Wala na ang WTBA
ron villasquez: o di merong magbabago
ron villasquez: mamamasahe na sina von ekang emman et al
ron villasquez: so bibigyan sila ng more money
ron villasquez: ng magulang
ron villasquez: nila
ron villasquez: tapos mauubos na ung pera ng parents nila
ron villasquez: tapos hindi na makakapagaral ung tatlo et al
ron villasquez: tapos magpapakaprostitutes na sila
ron villasquez: magkakaanak ng marami
ron villasquez: walang other half
ron villasquez: (except si von, magiging mamasan siya)
ron villasquez: so si emman ekang et al ibubugaw ni von
ron villasquez: tapos mababliw sina emman
ron villasquez: magpapakamatay sila
ron villasquez: si von yayaman ng yayaman
ron villasquez: and will live happily ever after
HamSTAR: HAHAHAH WTF
HamSTAR: ANG GANDANG IMAGINATION
ron villasquez: SEE, thats whats gonna happen when you die
ron villasquez: tsk tsk tsk
HamSTAR: this makes a wonderful blog entry


... yeah, thanks so much, Ron. aywabyu. =))